I'm in school right now. Isn't that awful? The only time I have to update this thing is like 12 o'clock at night or during school. I am so ready to graduate. :-)
God has done an awesome thing in my life lately. I just don't feel like myself anymore. I don't know where my life's headed, I don't know who I am...who I'm becoming. Over the course of a little over six months I've fallen in love for the first time, gotten a job, made a real best friend, found out that my surroundings and circumstances aren't supposed to be the way they are, just so many things...too many to name. To top it all off I've felt seperated from God and I don't know why. There are times...usually sundays...when He'll give me strength to carry on for a little while longer spiritually, but I feel like that's all that is holding me together at this point. Why does it keep getting harder to say thanks? Why is it becoming more and more of a burden, rather then a joy, to pray and read the word? Someone called me down from the praise team sunday and told me they needed to pray for me. He also said God spoke to him and told him to tell me not to worry about where my life was headed...that what would provide oppurtunities for me. I wouldn't have to go searching for them. Desiring to be in the music business, that's a heavy burden taken away from me. I've always thought that I'd have to go looking for places to perform, ect., but they're coming to me. He also prayed for my family to encourage me, which they haven't been doing much of lately. Well, I've got to go before the bell rings. Later!
~Neener